Friday, January 29, 2010

Forever Young.

I am 22 years old.  My best friends are still in college.  Living up the single life. Partying like crazy...
When I was at BYU a few weeks ago they were talking about being the "old girls" on campus and how their time is running out...  which is ridiculous and laughable...
But it got me thinking.  That is something I have not felt yet..  ...old.  

I got married when I was 19- which could be considered closer to illegal than just far too young in most people's minds.
And now I live in New York City. pregnant at age 22. 
Let's just say there are by far more 40 year olds pregnant here than girls in their 20's. 
I am a rare species on this side of the country.

My OB said on my first visit- "I just want you to know that you are not the youngest girl we have seen here" and I said, "But I am the youngest that got pregnant on purpose. Right?" 
To which she replied, "Yes. By far."

I have felt myself at times get uncomfortable or embarrassed when I tell people I am married... 
and then I have to announce that I am also 5 months pregnant.
And then I feel the need to say that I got married 2 1/2 years ago so they don't think I am married just because I am pregnant... although they would think that made much more sense than a 19 year old getting married and a 22 year old choosing to have kids...
And this is something I will deal with forever... The youngest parent at preschool and kindergarten and graduation  etc. etc. etc.

And then I get to hear how young and crazy I am. (And it doesn't help that I look even younger)

But then I realize they are right.  I am young.  And I am crazy.  I would not, could not argue with that.

I suppose I will be forever young.

And I am just happy and thankful that in my young and fragile state, so far my really crazy decisions have been really really good ones. For me.

Otherwise I would be young and crazy AND stupid.

Oh wait- Stupid happened this morning when I started wishing that I could start baby number 2 right now.

Stupid is fair game I suppose.


Nancy said...

All you have to do is move to Utah and then all of that would change! Anyway you're the one who is normal and they are the weird ones, you just have to own you're choice and age, right?

McKell and John said...

Tay, you will love being the youngest mom at preschool and kindergarten!! What all those old women who choose to have kids so late in the game is that you NEED ENERGY when you have kids, lots of it! Your kids are so lucky to have you as their wild and crazy mother!! And you're gonna love looking so young when you're fifty like your mom who still looks thirty!!!

The Nixon Family said...

from one forever younger to another...
everyone will ALWAYS make a big deal that you are younger. i get it every day. i love that my friends are older than me, but have kids the same age. you will become the expert to the 40 year old first time moms. and remember when i was in ny with you and everyone was so shocked that i had a kid, and she was my THIRD! and to make you feel better, i had my frist kid at 21. that makes me even supider.

Kendra and Nathan said...

There are consequences to starting late, as will your OB/GYN will attest. I am sure she does more fertility treatment/counseling than anything with the women that start having kids after their careers are in full bloom. Count your young uterus thankful. :)

laurel said...

Oh how I know how you feel!

JT and Lizzie Davis said...

I love feeling young and being the young one too. It rocks. I love when people give me a look like I'm crazy or just tell me I'm too young to be married and I get to say, "Yes, I'm one of the lucky ones - to find my love at young age." That always softens their face and they respond, "Oh yeah, that is really great." In fact once at JFK I was going through security with JT and the guard realized we were married from my ID and looked up and said, "Oh lucky. I wish I was married." It was great.

More power to you for being the young Mom. It's going to be great to be the youngest Mom at the school, playground, graduation, etc. I definitely think you are ready for it and going to be the best Mom ever.

stacie and geoffrey... said...

If you're ever worried about the age factor- think of Geoff and I. We can't buy spray paint yet.

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Angela said...

So funny--I'm in Nebraska, and around here, many people are married and having kids at your age! I'm 28, married but no kids, and I feel so old! It's all relative.

Brooke and Brett Martin said...

Loved your thoughts Taylor. You are going to be such a great mom. What a different culture over there. So would have people thrown rocks at me if they saw me barely being 23 yrs old and having 3 kids under the age 3? Yikes, I'd have no friends there. heehee.
Tay...I'm 19 weeks pregnant, due July 12th. Our kids get to be friends! Ya know...since we get to see each other all of the time!?
I hope you are feeling well. I really am just SO excited for you...such a cute mama.